...she realized that her life was becoming unbearable. Every morning she played games with herself, telling herself that today something wonderful was going to happen... that the next time the phone rang, it would be good newsthat would change her life... or that she was going to get a surprise in the mail. But it was never anything special, just a wrong number, or a neighborwanting something.

She was in despair when she finally realized that nothing was ever going to change in her life; that nobody would come for her to take her away.

Maybe she wasn'tafraid of death, after all. What she really was afraid of was her own life.